I'm so sorry to hear this. I know the feeling, I was first diagnosed back in 2017 with CLL and Non-Hodgkins Small B-Cell Lymphoma and I kicked it into remission (so to speak in 6 months with chemotherapy) for 2 years I had a break. Now this year in April I found out through a regular checkup from my doctor that the same 2 types of cancer were back. I would have rather took a slap in the face from my doctor as to be told this. This time around it is worse on me, been dealing with a lot more stuff (cellulitis, shingles etc.). I'm currently on the expensive medicine called Imbruvica. What type of cancer do you have, if you don't mind me asking ? I like you was taking chemotherapy the first time around and as far as hair loss I just lost a small patch on the back of my head but it wasn't real noticeable because of my thick hair, but nevertheless I knew it was there. Now the medicine I'm on now I'm noticing more hair loss when I shower, brush my hair or heck just run my fingers through it. Not saying this by any means to discourage you, because I know how you feel, but it will grow back. My prayers are with you and your family and if you ever need anyone to talk to just add me to your team on here or message me back on here. I will leave with you my motto this time around "My Faith Is Greater Than My Fear".