Ugh…I sooooo can relate to what you are feeling TSully. My story is a tad different but not by much. When I was diagnosed 11yrs ago, my husband & I had been married for 20 yrs. I thought we were soulmates…well..within a year I was seeing a lawyer for a divorce. My ex became a totally different person, said I was diseased, got angry with me because I couldn’t do things like I used…angry that I was fatigued all the time..never went to one appointment with me, & yes ended up with another woman. But yanno what? It was the best thing that ever happened to me. Seriously. Yes, it’s heartbreaking & you feel lost & lonely, but in time you will gain your own sense of self again. It is his loss & your gain…why would you want someone like that who is incapable of loving you & didn’t give you a second thought to be with someone else? He is pure trash & is not deserving of you. Block him from your phone & never speak to him again. If you are married, find a lawyer..he has committed adultery, etc. Big hugs to you. Lean on your friends & family members until you get back on your feet ok..

My wife who I have known for 50 years is a very caring person. My illness only awakened her caring mood which is very protective and caring. I think if there is a relationship this personal care mood is natural. I am have CLL but I do take medication and I think my WBC count is 100% normal and so is my mental and physical health. I am glad I had maintained my health before and after CLL. I do understand if a person wants to exit a relationship because of an illness there was a problem before the illness occurred to make the problem worst? I hope you can discuss this issue to find the reason for this concern happening and a possible solution to fix your relationship. I think an understanding that CLL can be a long term illness that can be maintained with medication, healthy eating, and exercise has been my solution to a more than normal life. Each morning I tell my wife I am going outside at 6:30 to do my property work. this summer I have cut and split 1.4 cords of wood and I plan to do 2 cords of wood. I live in a very hot and dry area where I have to be inside between 8 - 9 AM to avoid exposure to the sun which is bad for a person with CLL. My wife does warn me to come inside after I have been outside for 90 to 120 minutes. When I do come inside I am covered in sweat and sawdust. I am 74 but I do not act my age or seem to have CLL. I do miss going to the gym 3 times a week and just moving the weights and jogging but property maintenance on 5 acres in an oak tree forest is important.

Great advice!

Try to take one step & one day at a time. It’s not easy & yes, easier said than done. Keep things in perspective & put your health first each day. Nurture yourself as well ok