Such a difficult place to be right now. The unknown is the worst, but try to focus on any good you notice, and enjoy the life as much as possible, even when you feel awful. 😉 where the mind goes your feelings are sure to follow. Please know, I do get how uncertain it is for you right now, so if you need to get meds to help, call the support lines like the Be well line. All of us with leukemia are in the same boat, we have no idea what is going to happen, so stay in the moment, read.positve quotes, read the Bible, listen to uplifting music, fo for a walk, hug a dog or something that give you pleasure.
What you are feeling right now will pass.
Hang in there.

I talked to my doctor who suggested Zoloft but that is a drug you have to take all the time and I’m not sure I want to start that.

Thank you! So kind of you to take time for such a caring message!!